My Birthday 2020

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum & Hi! 😃

16th June 2020 / 24 Shawwal 1441H (Tuesday)

It's my birthday yay! I woke up that morning while opening two precious presents; my beautiful eyes that keep allowing me to enjoy the sight in this world as well as the gift of breathing to keep me alive & so much more. Another year older, another year wiser hopefully. From a playful little dreamer to a grown up lady. I’m more than blessed, Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.. 💕

It was during the working day, therefore I took 2 days off just to celebrate my annual special day. Hiks! Me, Mama, Pony & Faiz went for my birthday dinner at Jibby East (I chose that place). They arranged to surprise me with Happy Birthday song by Jibby East crew along with a yummy slice of pavlova that I have always loved! Same as every year, overwhelming wishes & prayers from all those people I love! Thank you my dearest family & friends, to everyone for the thoughtful wishes & prayers. My parents deserved the prayers more than I do. May Allah hears all the prayers & grants the best of best in return of your prayers.. Aamiin aamiin ya Rabb. ✨

Nothing much to share but the blessings of course. Alhamdulillah again! 🥰❤️ Let me just share the photos of foods that we have been enjoying during that night. Jemput cuci mata! All the foods are yummy I must say.  

 Sweet Potato Fries

 Squid Ink Spaghetti

 Beef Lasagna

 Braised Lamb Shank

Since that me & Angah's birthday, also Mama's wedding anniversary with Almarhum Papa are only few days apart, we had a family gathering on the following weekend on 20th June during Angah's birthday. Mama cooked her delicious Laksa Johor upon my request & I ordered my favourite Tauhu Bergedil. We also had our hearty Kek Batik Indulgence, Lotus Biscoff Cheese Cake & Kuih Kole Kacang as desserts. Masha Allah I couldn't be happier whenever I'm being with my Darleena family yay! I want to share the yummy photos here, too. Hehe.

It has been a month since my very new age but all loves & memories shall remain, though. I choose to keep the memories here, just in case. “When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive – to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love.” Marcus Aurelius 💐 Till then! 💋

When The Faith Go MARCHing In.

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum & Hi! 😃

The moment when I updated the previous entry of this blog, I made a promise to myself that I will keep this blog updated with at least one (1) entry every month. However, I broke my own word when I didn't update any single entry for the month of February 2020. This is for no one but only for myself, though, it's still hurtful that I broke the promise to myself. 😭 I remember like few days before February ended, I realised that I have yet updated this blog so I planned to do so on 29th as it's a rare date which only comes on every 4 years of leap but still, I didn't make it happen. Therefore, there won't be any history for 29 February 2020 and after all (to console myself sobs sobs),

We're human beings and we sometimes forget..

Anyway, it has been 3 months since the arrival of the new decade 2020. Looking at how the time flies so fast, day by day; time left us so fast and with or without our smiles, the new days will still comes eventually. We can also say that time flies, whether you’re wasting it or not. Masha Allah.. Huhu. My first quarter of 2020 is already full with ups and downs in my life; what is life without any test isn't it? I'm sure that things have been topsy-turvy not only for me here but the same goes for most of us around the world right now.. 😓

Coronavirus Disease 2019 (COVID-19)

The news about Coronavirus (COVID-19) outbreak brought the shock to the world when it was first discovered in Wuhan, China. The World Health Organization (WHO) declared the outbreak to be a Public Health Emergency of International Concern on 30 January 2020 and recognized it as a pandemic on 11 March 2020. COVID-19 was first identified to have spread to Malaysia on 25 January 2020. Up until the moment I'm typing this entry, 2,626 positive cases with 479 recovered and 37 deaths were recorded in our country Malaysia. Within 2 months, the trends have been massively increasing due to some factors and that's why we're all required to quarantine ourselves in own house with the Movement Control Order (MCO) which has been implemented commencing 18 March 2020 for 2 weeks. On 25 March, our Prime Minister, Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin through a live national telecast announced that the control order is extended till 14 April 2020.

 

Source of photo & info from KKM.

Initially, I have never thought that the situation will go to this far. It's getting worse yet unpredictable day by day when there are new cases reported everyday including deaths until they decided to proceed with the hardest decision they ever made; by implementing the Movement Control Order (MCO). Of course, bila cakap fasal MCO ni rasa kesian sangat bila fikir akan orang-orang yang cari rezeki dengan berniaga, makcik & pakcik tua, orang susah yang hidup bergantung dengan pendapatan harian yang tak menentu & semua orang yang dalam kesusahan. Orang gelandangan pun sama. Kesian sangat-sangat. Semoga Allah pelihara mereka semua, kurniakan rezeki tanpa henti buat mereka.. Aamiin ya Rabb.

Came to this far, Alhamdulillah I'm very impressed with the way our Malaysia Government is handling the situation. They came out with daily updates and press statements to keep us updated with the current ongoing situation. Other than that, there are tremendous efforts being done by the Government in making sure that rakyat won't be suffering throughout the hard time that we're all currently facing. My utmost respect to all the people who have been there working hard serving for our nation's safety. Those people working in the Ministry of Health for government or even the private healthcare line, be it the front liners; doctors, medical assistants, nurses & all parties who got involved are like our guardian angels. May Allah give them ultimate strength & keep them safe from any harm.. 💖

As an individual, we need to be responsible & have faith. The sun will rise soon. It's always the darkest hour before the dawn. Our faith have to be greater than our fear to this COVID-19. After all that happened, we should have learned that life is so fragile and precious. The end for us may come anytime, and only Allah knows. So let’s go after life, try to handle it well, not take it for granted. Smile more, work hard, give life our all, pray for the best. And love much, love and be loved in return. Do your part, STAY AT HOME! It's actually one effortless way to spend your precious time with beloved family during the current situation that is happening. Look at how much time we have now to spend with our loved ones; our family, our spouse, our children our parents & our siblings. All this while, did we take time for granted? Are we so attached to the worldly life? I guess this is the best time for us to do some reflection. Ingat senang ke nak dapat duduk rumah sebulan tak payah keluar hadap traffic jam pergi office? Yes of course we still have to work from home but it's okay anyway we're less busy than usual isn't it? Hehe. All in all, may Allah bless & protect our country Malaysia. Semoga COVID-19 ini akan cepat berakhir & at the end of the day, semoga Allah ampunkan dosa kita, permudahkan segala urusan kita, limpahkan rezeki yang berterusan, pulihkan yang terjejas serta beri ketabahan kepada semua. Aamiin aamiin ya Rabb! 

P/s: Panjang juga I menulis macam biasa yaa. Punya lama tangguh publish entry ni. I will definitely be back for an update soon! 😘 Take care, stay safe & stay at home everyone! Lailaha illa anta, subhanaka, inni kuntu minaz zalimin.. 🌸

2020, a Whole New Decade!

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum & Hi! 😃

I can't believe that I'm finally here to update something. Masha Allah.. It has been more than a year (literally 1 year and 3 months) since my very last unusual update and I thought that I will never update my blog again. Looking back at the past few years after I started working, I almost forgot that I have a precious blog where I can just write anything I want at any time whenever I feel like writing something. But I guess, people can forget easily at any cause except for something like someone's mistake to them (kot!). Hehehe. Anyway, it's not like I don't want to update something here but as always, my time constraint usually becomes the typical excuse for me. It's okay! I'm already here and definitely I won't forget this blog where I usually spent my free time since 10 years back. Oh my God! 10 years? Yesssss.. 

10 YEARS OF BLOGGING HERE! 🎉

Well, 10 years of blogging is quite an achievement, a part of all the milestones that I have successfully accomplished within the 10 years (second decade) of my living in this world Alhamdulillah. 31st December 2019, Tuesday --- it was the very last day for the decade of 2010s. I believe that there must be so many remarkable things happened within 10 years to me & to everyone. Despite those achievements, for me, I can say that 2010s was the saddest decade in my life so far because I have lost a lot of my closest family members during the decade. Every soul will taste death & eventually, life goes on.. 😔 Al-Fatihah to those beloved who have left us in this world. The loves & thoughts will always remain, In Sha Allah. 💐

2010 - I lost my paternal grandmother.

2011 - I lost my father.

2016 - I lost my maternal grandfather.

2017 - I lost my great maternal grandmother.

2018 - I lost my maternal grandmother.

On myself, I believe that I have yet found the missing parts in me that I'm still searching for until today. At this age that already passing 25 years old of living, there are still a lot of things that I have to keep looking ahead which one of it is jodoh. A lot of my friends have settled down by getting married and have kids but I'm left behind on this jodoh thingy. Hehe. The past decade somehow witnessing 2 of my younger sisters getting married before me, Angah (on December 2015) & Ain (on November 2019). Alhamdulillah I'm very happy for them as I'm getting more niece & nephew(s) too while my very own dearest family is growing bigger Masha Allah. After several losses, Allah replaced the losses with arrival of our dearest Sofea Nafeesa the First (Angah's daughter) on January 2018. She's already turned 2 this year & we're having more babies coming on 2020 for Darleena family. Papa already became a Papa Mentua to 2 sons-in-law named Shafaris (Angah's husband) & Faris (Ain's husband), a Grandpa to Sofea & forever the loveliest Papa to Princesses Darleena. Papa will definitely be happy to see all the good changes if he's still here with us. We miss you a lot & we always miss you on every seconds of our breaths, Papa. May Allah reunite us all back in Jannah later, Aamiin Aamiin ya Rabb! 💕✨

After all, something to ponder:‬ ‪all this while we’ve been working hard & struggling to live a happy life. We don’t mind to put so much of efforts on it but we forget to strive towards the happy ending of our life; to die happily without any worry. We think more about our life in this temporary world instead of the eternal hereafter. Husnul khatimah that we all should dream of..‬ 🥺 Astaghfirullah al azim. Forgive us, Ya Rabb..

I pray that the all new decade of 2020 will bring us all new hopes, new resolutions, new motivation towards the happy ending in our life & our happiness in hereafter. May Allah ease everything for everyone, may we all find the serenity & happiness that we’ve been looking for all this while. 🌸💕 Other than that, may Allah grant us with all that we need instead of what we wanted to have because after all only Allah knows the best for us. Let’s start the new year 2020 with bright smile & positivity yay! I just hope that it's not too late for me to wish Happy New Year everyone! 🥳🎉

P/s: Today is already the second last day of January 2020. For some people who considered January as your trial period of 2020, please be reminded that the trial period is due on tomorrow. Let's start the fresh new us on February 2020, no more delaying! (Oh yes I'm one of them subscribing for the trial period anyway! Hehehehe).

A Love Letter for Ruzainah

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum & Hi! 😃

My last post here was more than a year ago!

As usual, it has been so long.

Alhamdulillah, though, I still got the chance to express my words here.

This entry is very special in a way. Oh yes.. I have never shared anything here since the last time I updated this blog through this post -- BACK TO 2017! Ya Allah.. So many things to catch up yet so less of time that I have. Huhuhu. It's okay.. Past is past. This time, I want to share about someone who has took one special place in my heart; all of this entry is specially dedicated for her. 💖

You know, more than a year back I was the only girl in my project site. I felt very alone. I could not find someone to talk to about the things that were burdening my heart and I was also going through somehow quite a difficult phase in my life. But one day, a beautiful soul came into my life. She delighted my life at work! 

Little did I know, a text I received from someone asking for a direction to our project site (damn she called me kakak in the text!) could be the catalyst of a very beautiful friendship and little did I know that when I was at the lowest point in my life, when I thought I was not good enough to be in this world, when I could no longer fight to see tomorrow, and when I felt so, so incredibly alone, that very same beautiful soul would be the one pulling me out of the darkness simply by asking me every day, "Hajar okay tak ni?”

This beautiful soul would stick with me for hours at work, all day from morning till evening, kadang kadang sampai malam wehh kitorang lepak just listening to me ramble on and on about the things that were troubling my mind and my heart. Dia hilang kalau dia kena pergi site and busy gila just like me also. She listened, and never judged and she would always remind me to maintain my patience, be strong, following with her addicting-oxytocin-releaser-kind-of-calming-relieving-hugs every time. (Okay I admit that I actually started this. Huhu.) And she has been with me through so much of my life on the past year even though we can go to the extent of having a crazy-wrestling-stunt-tarik tudung-tarik rambut-smack here-there kind of drama also starring Anis as our highlighter every day. Lol! 

This beautiful soul, is my baby girl, Ruzainah. Some of you may know her as Ruz or Aida Jebat or Hmmmm (dm me further) - and she is all kinds of awesome - but I don't think I can ever find the words to express how extremely grateful I am for her. Awwhhh!

Ruz, I hope that our friendship will remain forever, though, maybe someday we will no longer be working in the same Company. Now we are separated by the fate, I was placed in TRX, you were placed in KLCC East. But Allah knows our sorrow, he united us back in TRX after you transfer to the Rebar Yard at Jalan Inai. Again, we had happy time together every day, like nothing that can separate us after all. I guess it’s true what people say, though, even the best-laid plans go astray. We are again separated recently; I was taken away to HQ while she stays at the Rebar Yard…

What I have been felt all the while when I am with her? - a sense of togetherness, of camaraderie. Camaraderie is a mutual trust and friendship among people who spend a lot of time together. Now I realized how grateful we should be towards all the blessings from Allah. Literally, none of us is ever alone and that when we do anything for Allah, He will always send us good people to help us in our day to day. Just like how He sent Ruz to me when I needed someone. I really mean this… And that's all that matters at the end of the day, isn't it? That I love her very much, how I hope that she loves me as much as I do. Eventually, what we are all seeking for is His grace, to accompany every step in the course of our life. I love you very much Ruzainah! 😍💕

#WordlessWednesday - The Daily Grind Gourmet Burgers

BACK TO 2017!

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum & Hi! 😃

29th August 2017? OMG! Again.. It has been a while though.

More than a year after my last update on 2016! Kau gila qishh? Mana menghilang? Haha. As usual.. Saya ni mana pernah tak busy kannn. Kalau tak busy tu macam ajaib gila kot. :p Alhamdulillah I'm back! Still alive, sihat walafiat hendaknya namun masih busy macam dulu malah bertambah busy rasanya.. Hee. Bersawang teruk dah nii! Nanti lah panggil cleaner kasi cuci semua habuk kat blog ni. I mana lah ada masa kann. Kata busy.. Ni pun tetiba rasa rajin membuak buak nak update sebab tengah free sikit memandangkan this week dah nak cuti 4 hari and kerja pun tak berapa banyaklah Alhamdulillah.. Hiks! 😜

Macam mana hidup sejak dah rasmi berusia 24 tahun ini? Alhamdulillah.. Sangat sangat banyak perkara yang dah berlaku dalam hidup -- baik buruk pahit manis sedih gembira.. Semua ada bercampur baur segala yang bila compile semua memang kalau buat novel berpuluh jilid pun tak habis lahh.. Haha. Kalau nak catch up balik cerita dari A sampai Z memang panjang sebab dah lama sangat tak update blog kann tapinya In Sha Allah I will highlight apa apa yang dirasakan penting untuk dicoret coret kembali disini. Last I update on 19th June like almost 3 months ago pun saja lah copy paste pasal my color oracle jee and nothing much. Hmm okayy.. I will try my best gaisss.. *Cehh macam lah ada orang datang jenguk lagi blog picisan kita ni untuk baca entry kann. 🙈

Referring to my very last post about myself on 31st May 2016, I was highlighting about the few months of my 2016 while the previous post before on 13th January 2016 pula I cakap cakap pasal the highlighted life events of 2015. Lol! Setahun 2 entry updates saja ke like seriously? Dah cakap memang busy kann? Haha. Minta ampun lahh.. Minta ampun wehh. Bila throwback balik entries lama kat blog and even posts lama kat Facebook, Twitter, Instagram memang rasa macam nak menangisss.. 😭 Like I mentioned just now memang so many things happen within the whole year yang I terlepas nak update blog tu and now I feel like how I wish I have more free time untuk merepek dekat sini. Hah takpa.. Nasi dah jadi bubur kann? As for me, bubur lagi sedap dari nasi. So bubur tu bukanlah satu pengakhiran.. Kita sedapkan lah tambah rencah kehidupan dan kita nikmatinya asalkan perut jadi kenyang. Haha! Tengok budak ni merepek lagii..

So.. Following to this ENTRY..

1) Work? Hmmm. Sekarang rezeki saya masih di bidang construction. Alhamdulillah dah 7 bulan bekerja dengan sebuah syarikat multinasional dari Perancis yang terkenal di dunia dalam bidang geotechnical.. Nama company? Saya rahsiakan di sini. Hehe.

Gambar silos dekat site tempat saya bekerja. 

2) Study? Alhamdulillah dah masuk second year di University of Malaya. In Sha Allah kalau tiada aral yang melintang tahun ini saya akan habiskan pengajian. Sangat sangat banyak struggle disini memandangkan saya bekerja dan belajar dalam satu masa.. Tapi Allah masih beri kekuatan, selalu tolong budak ini untuk terus survive. Doakan saya!

Kekakaks classmates yang kita sayang sesangat.. Kaklizz & Kakzill. 💋

3) Family? Again, Alhamdulillah.. Allah masih beri saya waktu untuk diluangkan bersama keluarga tercinta yang paling saya sayang paaaaling syurga dalam hidup saya. In Sha Allah sikit waktu nanti makin bertambah ahli-ahli dalam keluarga kami. Hehe. 😍 Papa.. Kaklong sentiasa rindukan Papa. Kaklong harap Papa bahagia tengok kami dari 'sana'. 💖

Kaklong bersama monsters yang super annoying.. 

4) Relationship? Huhuhu. Taktahu lah nak cakap macam mana. Alhamdulillah dah terlepas dari azab, derita dan sakit hati yang sekian lama. Sungguh banyak pengajaran, hikmah serta ibrahnya. Hmmm cukuplah saya cakap disini yang Allah sedang merancang perjalanan yang paling indah buat saya In Sha Allah.. Doakan yang baik baik buat saya dengan siapapun itu yang nama dia dan saya akan bersama sama diikat untuk melayari bahtera cinta ke syurga kelak.. Ececehhh. 😆

Letak gambar cenggini aci takk? Kahkah. *Edit je nii.

5) Lain Lain? Hmmmmmmm. Again lah nak cakap.. Hahaha! Seriously wehhhhh banyak gila benda nak catch kalau nak diceritakan semua disini.. Oh yaa.. My bestfriend, Nabeela dah selamat menjadi isteri orang hampir sebulan yang lain.. Kawan kawan sekolah, kawan universiti, kawan kerja pun ramai dah kahwin dah beranak pinak pun, ada juga yang dulunya rapat sangat sangat kini dah macam taknak kawan dengan kita.. Sedihhh! Ada juga kawan yang dah lama tak jumpa tapi bila jumpa masih erat ukhwahnya macam dulu, ada juga dapat kawan baru malah rasa macam patah tumbuh hilang berganti kot.. 🙊 Okayfine.. Item "Lain-Lain" ni kita highlight pasal kawan pulak! Haha.

Qish with my bestfriend, Beela 💕

Entry ni macam dah panjang gila kann? Rasa macam nak selit gambar seketul dua (tiga empat limaa) tapinya nanti lagi panjang. Hmmm tapinya kalau takda gambar macam tak berseri pula entry. Kahkah! Perempuan adalah sangat complicated.. Okay letaklah sikit sambil baca sambil cuci mata so takda lah nampak boring kann. *Itu pun kalau ada orang baca. Duhhh.. Okay nampaknya sekarang nak kena gulung lah entry ni sambil berguling.. 💤

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.. Syukur nikmat atas segala kebaikan yang Allah datangkan dan syukur nikmat juga atas segala ujian yang Allah datangkan mengajar kita tentang erti kehidupan serta untuk menghargai setiap hembusan nafas kita saban hari. Here we go.. Another quarterly entry of mine. Ahahaha. Till we meet next time in the next entry which I don't even know when. As a reminder -- Allah ciptakan kita dengan cinta, kita lahir hasil hubungan cinta, kita hidup di atas muka bumi ini juga dengan ihsan cinta dariNya maka hiduplah dengan penuh rasa cinta terhadapNya dan sebarkanlah cintaNya ke seluruh pelusuk muka bumi ini. Islam itu agama yang penuh dengan cinta maka sebarkanlah ia dengan cinta.. Moga ada lagi waktu untuk mencoret di sini lagi. *Benda ni saya copy paste dari entry lama jee sebab memang nak cakap benda sama againn. Hee. Nanti ada waktu maybe cuti lusa tulat tu In Sha Allah kita nak try update lagi dengan kupasan isu menarik. :p Salam sayang.. Doakan saya selalu and mashehh! 💕

Color Oracle of Qish Darleena

Interpretation of the Colors You Find Most Pleasing

Of great importance to you now is...

...freeing yourself through an easier life.

You would like to finally rid yourself of personal problems which oppress you, and you hope you could somehow make your life easier. Your ideal is to be free of all things unpleasant, to never get upset over anything or anyone and to move through life unburdened. For this reason, you do what you can to avoid contact with people who cause you problems. It is to your disadvantage, though, that in doing this, you also avoid examining your problems, mistakes and weaknesses. You hope to make your life easier by...

You can ask yourself:

Does my strong desire to do something that brings me joy and always keeps me on the go stem from the need to repress unpleasant problems? Wouldn't it be better to take an unflinching look at these, analyze them and search for a way to solve them?

...optimistic self-encouragement.

Again and again, you consciously adopt a positive inner attitude. This helps you to better stand up under the hardships of the present. You create goals, projects or ideals for yourself that give you a boost and the hope that your life will be better and happier. You search for ways and means which allow you to enjoy life without care and to spend more time devoting yourself to the things that bring you joy. In order to forge ahead in good spirits you now need...

You can ask yourself:

Why do I actually try so hard to keep everything under control? Why do I try to prove to myself and others how hardworking I am? Does my value really depend only on whether I am admired for my accomplishments or special abilities?

...vigorous self-assertion.

You now want to pull out all the stops in order to achieve what you have planned. Your chances are good because if you feel something is important you are able to show initiative, grab the opportunity spontaneously and act with vigor. You can also display energetic efforts in your personal relationships: if you love or admire someone you are prepared to undertake quite a bit in order to win or hold on to his affection. You utilize a major portion of your powers for...

...objective assessment of the situation.

Whatever you perceive – people, things or information – you analyze it, both critically and with a certain amount of skepticism, because you want to be certain whether it is beneficial to you or not. You are not easily misled, and in line with the motto “once bitten, twice shy”, you keep your distance from everything that could damage your wallet, your reputation, your wellbeing or your peace of mind. One thing is utterly clear to you: your present situation requires...

...relaxing favorite pastime.

When the difficulties of daily life or human interaction become too much, you prefer to retreat to your favorite pastime, a quiet hobby or into the world of your thoughts, dreams and fantasies. If you try to achieve the necessary balance to daily routine through a regular practice of meditation, you will find what you have actually been looking for: inner detachedness and peace. It would also be ideal if you could occasionally spend time in the great outdoors. You believe a particular help in achieving the inner peace you desire is...

...nurturing useful relationships.

Due to the fact that you are stuck in a genuinely unpleasant situation, you seek contact with helpful people you hope will show you understanding and provide you with moral support. It could be that you receive the necessary encouragement, but in the end, you have to solve your personal problems yourself. Your common sense will help you in this.

Interpretation of the Colors You Find Most Unpleasant

At the moment you feel most anxious due to your...

...fainthearted fear of failure.

At the present time, you are seriously challenged by stressful conditions. It may be job-related or interpersonal difficulties or emotional problems which threaten to rob you of strength. You force yourself to face the challenge nonetheless. Behind your unswerving attitude, hides the immobilizing fear that you might not make it, and as a result, could be exposed as incompetent or even as a failure, and would lose the respect of others. Since you find it embarrassing you don't let on anything about your...

Your unconscious advises you to:

When you believe you have reached the limits of what is bearable, breathe out deeply three times, and let you anger go with each exhalation. Continue taking calm, deep breaths and say to yourself that even the worst experience can be an aid in your development if you accept it as a challenge you can train your strengths on. One Japanese saying is: "Difficulties make a jewel of you".

...burdensome situation of suffering.

You believe people should behave correctly, considerately and kindly towards you so that your interactions run pleasantly and without friction. Since this is frequently not the case, you often become indignant over their incorrect behavior and views or their lack of kindness. You easily get the feeling of being someone's innocent victim and believe you have every right to be outraged. You also suffer quite a bit due to your...

Your unconscious advises you to:

When you believe you have reached the limits of what is bearable, breathe out deeply three times, and let you anger go with each exhalation. Continue taking calm, deep breaths and say to yourself that even the worst experience can be an aid in your development if you accept it as a challenge you can train your strengths on. One Japanese saying is: "Difficulties make a jewel of you".

...gruelling test of nerves.

Your sense of wellbeing is negatively affected by stressful circumstances. You often feel misunderstood, unfairly treated or left at the mercy of the unacceptable behavior of a person who is important to you. You don't want to let on that you are aggravated by this, and you keep your irritation to yourself. Inside you, though, the accumulated resentment strains your nerves. For this reason, you are not very emotionally resilient at this time. You assume an air of exaggerated superiority despite your...

...unpleasant contentiousness.

The behavior of certain other people is a thorn in your side. You don't feel like putting up with just anything without objection, and because of this, you can give no guarantee you won't end up in an argument with the person in question. Your stubborn attitude could easily provoke confrontations. At the moment, your mood is somewhat gloomy due to your...

...uncomfortable immobility.

There are times at which you feel as if you were chained to people or circumstances which restrict your personal freedom to act and move. You can get itchy when your affairs move slowly as a result or when you have to wait so long for the fulfillment of your wishes out of consideration for others. You also feel very uneasy due to your...

...distressing want for affection.

You are disappointed because, in your opinion, you don't receive enough physical affection and aren't able to experience enough erotic pleasure. This could lead you to seek consolation in other sensual pleasures or to distract yourself from this feeling of want through activities you find absorbing. At best, both of these will provide you with only temporary satisfaction.

Quarterly Entry Yaa.

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum & Hi! :)

Long time no see yaa? Hehe. It was a very colourful start of 2016~ ❤ Like usual, I was very very busy all the way until now & I'm getting busier as bee day by day. And of course, no time for blogging because I don't even have time to manage my social accounts also. Haha. 2016 started very smoothly where I got tested with 1001 yays & nays that really shaken myself. But, Alhamdulillah.. Let's just share those few good things that came before. iLove ❤

Left Daewoo with 1+1 incentive plus lots of presents from boss & colleagues.

Furthering my study at University of Malaya. 

2+ precious months well spent with my beautiful Mama~ ❤

Once in a while, spent my precious time with MH si Jurutera Hati Bunga.

Made many new friends in University of Malaya.

Now almost reaching half a year having life as a student back.. Quite hectic but I love challenges. Haha. After almost 3 months not working, trying to adapt myself with study life then suddenly I got very boring because my class is only during the weekend. Kekonon at first planned nak start a business lepastu macam malas pula sebab taktahu nak meniaga apa. Ahaha. Then throughout each month yang I was unemployed tu I went to 1 interview per month and all the interviews were succeed but I just have to take few things into consideration like the office location, transport to office, remuneration offered etc. Finally I got a call from this one company. I just applied for the job through Jobstreet the day before and the next day they called me to come for the interview session on Friday. As soon after I finished the interview, the Managing Director straightly offered me the job position in that company and I should start my first day immediately on the coming Monday after the interview. Masha Allah.. Mahunya tak terkejut but saya bersyukur sangat sebab Allah selalu permudahkan urusan rezeki saya. ;'D

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.. Syukur nikmat atas segala kebaikan yang Dia datangkan dan syukur nikmat juga atas segala ujian yang Dia datangkan mengajar kita tentang erti kehidupan serta untuk menghargai setiap hembusan nafas kita saban hari. Here we go again.. Another quarterly entry of mine. Ahahaha. Till we meet next time in the next entry which I don't even know when. As a reminder -- Allah ciptakan kita dengan cinta, kita lahir hasil hubungan cinta, kita hidup di atas muka bumi ini juga dengan ihsan cinta dariNya maka hiduplah dengan penuh rasa cinta terhadapNya dan sebarkanlah cintaNya ke seluruh pelusuk muka bumi ini. Islam itu agama yang penuh dengan cinta maka sebarkanlah ia dengan cinta.. Moga ada lagi waktu untuk mencoret di sini lagi. Okay bye~

Hijab Fashion - A Fresh Revolution!

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum & hi there! ^^

Hmmm. It's been a while since my last update here. Due to the pack daily schedule and 1001 things that needed more attention from me, I've neglected my baby blog. Sorry dear.. I've got another life outside that I need to focus on. Hehe. I'm back today with an entry about the latest hijab fashion. Though I'm not really up to date with my own hijab fashion, but I don't think that it would be a problem for me to talk about it. So what say you? :)

We could see that in the last few years, latest hijab fashion is getting more attention from everyone especially the Muslim fashion lovers. Not forgotten among fashion designers and fashion enthusiasts who are always keen to bring this to the next level. As in our local industry itself, we also could see how hijab revolution is expanding years by years started with the famous ‘tudung bawal’ then changed to the phenomenon of ‘tudung sarung’ (which we believe still in demand) and many more type of hijab have been invented to fulfill the demand for the trend of latest hijab fashion. Isn't it a positive thing? In a row with the modernization, wearing hijab which is one of an obligation in our Deen (religion) has been accepted and many new hijab fashion have been invented to suit with the latest trends nowadays. ^^ Alhamdulillah..

Photo courtesy: BIKAYA @ ZALORA

Surveys have been done among the hijabsters (a group of lady whom wear hijab) and as you can see, the trend is changing again and people are starting to wear scarves or in other word ‘shawl’. This trend started in early 2013 and lots of designs have been created and the latest one is the practical ‘instant shawl’. This kind of invention surely can tell how fast the hijab fashion is growing these days. Yeay! all hail the latest hijab fashion for us! =D

Photo courtesy: Gorgeous Dareesa @ ZALORA

As what we can see, instant shawl is basically the easiest and simplest trend of hijab that can be worn by anyone. You can simply wear it without any brooch and pins since the inner is attached to the outer layer of the scarf. It is similar like you are wearing tudung sarung but with shawl-kinda-style. The instant shawl must be very convenient for ladies with the busy career life as for the students as well. There are many fashion , color and materials that can be suited with your age or style.

Photo courtesy: Qish Qish Butik @ ZALORA

Other that instant shawl, tudung hood or you can call it as hoodie is the other brilliant invention to any Muslimah who wants to look effortless gorgeous. There are various types and trends of hoodie in the market now where you can simply browse according to your personal style! From the simple basic hoodie to the one with beading and laces details on it, just name it as your preference. Wondering where to find those varieties of latest hijab fashion? Feel free to log on to ZALORA Malaysia website, the fastest growing online retailer in Southeast Asia. Many famous local hijab designers and boutique are gathering there providing you the latest hijab fashion updates that you can find daily with the nice attractive choices, thousands of varieties and surely with affordable prices that bring more convenience of the online shopping experinces to you, In Sha Allah. ^^

"And tell the believing women to reduce [some] of their vision and guard their private parts and not expose their adornment except that which [necessarily] appears thereof and to wrap [a portion of] their headcovers over their chests and not expose their adornment except to their husbands, their fathers, their husbands' fathers, their sons, their husbands' sons, their brothers, their brothers' sons, their sisters' sons, their women, that which their right hands possess, or those male attendants having no physical desire, or children who are not yet aware of the private aspects of women. And let them not stamp their feet to make known what they conceal of their adornment. And turn to Allah in repentance, all of you, O believers, that you might succeed." - QS An-Nur [24:31]

In Sha Allah. ❤

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum & Hi! :)

You know.. Life is not complete without any test from Him and surely our life is nothing more than just a test for us, His servants. Throughout our life, we'll go through the up and down in each phase with it's own lessons. Whether it is good or bad, whether it is positive or negative and whether it is a blessing or loss, it is still considered as the test. We tend to have many reactions plus feelings towards the test that is constraining us. However, when we are aware that the test is actually giving many lessons for us, as the reminder and the sign of love from our Lord towards us, we tend to become redha to accept the test. As for me, there's one word that really can make me feel calm even when I'm really in mess and feeling at my worst during that time. One word that is showing my trust and my fullest faith towards my Lord.. That one word -- In Sha Allah.. ❤

Wallahi I can feel His purest love when I'm saying that word. I know that He's always be here with me even though I can't see Him and even when I'm not getting what I am hoping for, what I wanted the most at the time I'm really in needed of it. He wills, with His wills.. In Sha Allah! ❤

"And indeed we, if Allah wills, will be guided." [QS 2:70]

Bear in mind.. His planning for us is the best after all.

With the right place, right time, right heart and the right guidance..

In Sha Allah we will find our way towards what we want. In Sha Allah.. ❤ ^_^

III. [Overlapping]

Dearest immortal beloved,

Even in bed my ideas yearn towards you, my immortal beloved, here and there joyfully, then again sadly, awaiting from His fate, whether it will listen to us. I can only live, either altogether with you or not at all. Yes, I have determined to wander about for so long far away, until I can fly into your arms and call myself quite at home with you, can send my soul enveloped by yours into the realm of spirits — yes, I regret, it must be. You will get over it all the more as you know my faithfulness to you; never another one can own my heart, never — never! O Allah, why must one go away from what one loves so, and yet my life in here. as it is now is a miserable life. Your love made me the happiest and unhappiest at the same time. At my actual age I should need some continuity, sameness of life — can that exist under our circumstances? Angel, I just hear that the post goes out every day — and must close therefore, so that you get the H. at once. Be calm — love me — today — yesterday.

What longing in tears for you — you — my life — my all — farewell. 

Oh, go on loving me — never doubt the faith-fullest heart of your beloved..

Ever thine.

Ever mine.

Ever ours.

I.

Dearest immortal beloved,

My angel, my all, my own self — only a few words today, and that too with pencil (with yours) — only till tomorrow is my lodging definitely fixed. What abominable waste of time in such things — why this deep grief, where necessity speaks?

Can our love persist otherwise than through sacrifices, than by not demanding everything? Canst thou change it, that thou are not entirely mine, I not entirely thine? Oh, God, look into beautiful nature and compose your mind to the inevitable. Love demands everything and is quite right, so it is for me with you, for you with me — only you forget so easily, that I must live for you and for me — were we quite united, you would notice this painful feeling as little as I should...

...We shall probably soon meet, even today I cannot communicate my remarks to you, which during these days I made about my life — were our hearts close together, I should probably not make any such remarks. My bosom is full, to tell you much — there are moments when I find that speech is nothing at all. Brighten up — remain my true and only treasure, my all, as I to you. The rest the gods must send, what must be for us and shall.

Yours faithfully.